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Had a long conversation with my mom about everything that's been going on in my head. This is something I continuously do, even though she really doesn't give a shit.

The end result was basically "you might be feeling bad, but at least you're heading somewhere. My life is so much shittier than yours."

I guess this is true? She's 50. Possibly too late in life to start over like I am. She said to quit K-Mart, and she was ambivalent about the problems I talked about with my relationship with my girlfriend. Granted, this could be because she really doesn't acknowledge it as a relationship at all.

Neither of my parents do anything to help themselves. All my dad has to do is go to a class and they can get cash assistance, but he won't. Too proud? Yeah, definitely. At least I know where I got that from.

I think she used the money for the electric bill for cigarettes.

There's really no one irl that I can turn to. I have one friend here, but she's a hanging out type friend? I've shared a few crummy things with her but mainly I dunno. Just not that kind of friend I guess.

How many times can a person pick themselves up before they just stay on the ground?

I'm sick with the thought of having to work tomorrow.