Thank you sooooo much to everyone that commented on my last post. Seriously. How did anti-social introverts survive before the internets and being able to 'talk' to people. ♥ I will remember you all when I'm rich!
In other news, asically I've been having a hard time lately accepting that I'm...accepted if that makes sense. I feel such self loathing that it's hard to understand what people are saying to me. I hear it. I understand the words. But I don't understand. This morning though, after a restless night and typical shitty day at work, my asshole manager came and talked to me about UofM since he had a daughter just graduate from there. And the guy who is an ass to everyone, who was an ass to me, was totally nice and even complimentary.
And...I get it now. People aren't going to act how I expect them too because...they're people. They think differently than I do; have had other experiences then I have had. What is beautiful to one, isn't to another. One loves oranges, another hates them. It seems like it's a simple concept, but when you dehumanize 'people' you seriously don't see this at all. And I have been doing this to an amazing extent. Missing that there are different flavors, different scents, different colors, because people are all different.
I'm truly sorry for hurting you.
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