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So, what have I been up to lately. Got my ass ripped up and handed to me by the girlfriend, but it's big enough to survive ripping so I'm still alive. For me, it's the first time I've been seriously called out on what I do, and it was seriously like being jolted awake. Since then I've been doing a lot of thinking about my behavior and why I do the things I do, what it means to be in a relationship, what it means to have human interactions and things along these lines.

It's interesting what this, combined with exercising, has done for me. (Although I'm taking 2 days off from tae bo because...I need 2 days off. But I will jump back in on Wednesday!!) I feel better. Not just a mood upswing I don't think. Those felt a little different, like depression was there lurking JUST OUT OF SIGHT, waiting for me to come back into its delicious arms. I'm not 'cured' by any means, if that's even possible. But for the first time...ever?...I feel like Things Will Be Okay.

I need to make another post about something else soon, but it'll keep for another day. Let's keep on going, self.