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Been a roller coaster of emotions lately. Lots of ups and downs. Just when I think I have a handle on things, it always seems to slip out of reach again. I'm going to the counseling office to fill out forms again on Wednesday though so. Maybe that's a step in the right direction, I don't know.

I'm not really worried about classes but I...should be. I might only be taking 12 credits, but the classes are hard. I'm worried about money though, so I volunteered to take more shifts. This will probably significantly reduce the amount of time online.

I'm worried that people will forget about me, will move on to bigger and better things while I'm struggling to get through this semester. I have no faith in my ability to maintain friendships, and I project that on to others quite a bit.

Anyway. No real point to this post. First day back at work in about an hour. A little nervous, but just first day jitters I think.

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It is time for me to stop trying to alienate people who are trying to care for me. So, today I have:

- Hugged Joey aka Lord Voldemort. God I had such a crush on him when I first moved here pfffttt. Frat boys, take your cues from Joey. That is how you should be.

- Commented to someone who I unjustifiably stopped talking to because I was being a petty bitch.

- Went out and hung out with sister. Had delicious ice cream.

- Didn't shy away when people at work started talking to me. Laughed with them instead of thinking they were laughing at me.

It's not much. But it's a start.