Yesterday

Was a horrible day. One of those days where everything and anything seems to go wrong.

Today I start on anti-depressants. By next week the psychiatrist says I should be thinking a little more clearly.

I don't understand astronomy. I'm struggling with not feeling like a complete failure for needing to utilize the services available for people who don't understand astronomy. That these services are available, indicating I am in no where near being alone not understanding astronomy doesn't make me feel any better. So I have to carve time out of the time I don't have to go to tutoring.

Bitch bitch whine whine. I find it unbelievable that medicine is supposed to suddenly make things more manageable.

I just have to pass astronomy. I don't need an A. I'm taking the class pass/fail. But as my boss and Rui predicted, I can't think of it that way. I'm terrified of missing points on this assignment.

88% is an A-.

I haven't had a chance to clean my apartment yet this week. I feel dirty. I haven't done tae bo either lately. But hopefully I'll be back on track this week; last week I had a shopping adventure and the Ren Faire which took up a lot of time.

Going to have to eat out again tonight. I don't have time to go shopping and go home to cook before tutoring.

Bleh.

Today's astro textbook adventures.

Physicists can make antimatter, in the form of individual particles, and even atoms of antihydrogen (an antielectron in an orbital around an antiproton). Perhaps some pocket of the universe contains antistars made from antihydrogen, with circling antiplanets and anticivilizations of antipeople. If so, you could safely introduce yourself to them over a radio transmission, but we wouldn't recommend a handshake.

then later...

Thus, the gold in your jewelry was forged not in the fires of Mordor, but in a type II supernova whose brightness rivaled a hundred billion stars combined.