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I haven't had a chesuto post in awhile. Basically because I've sorta been a failure at life.
But today I did a couple of things.
I went to Old Navy to buy a sweater that I liked that was on sale for $20 off, plus I got a 10% student discount. I picked up the XXL to try on and almost cried when it was a little bit too tight. As I was doing the walk of shame to put it back, I happened to glance down and see the tag.
It was a small. The small was a little too tight.
I called Rui cuz I was happy but then I...went to buy the XXL. My brain just refuses to acknowledge that I'm losing weight. Rui had to tell me to try on the medium and the large. I ended up buying the large.
I know that it's a sweater and that it stretches. But it's the very first ladies' clothing that I've bought in a size large.
On the way home, as I was sitting at the bus stop, a blind lady came up and said "hello" to the general bench. No one spoke up to talk to her.
Then I did.
And she was very nice. I spoke to someone! I could have just been like everyone else and occupy myself with something else. But I turned off my ipod and listened to her.
It's too soon for the medicine to be working. I've still had lots of negative thoughts and just generally been the same. But maybe...maybe I can be a happier person soon.
But today I did a couple of things.
I went to Old Navy to buy a sweater that I liked that was on sale for $20 off, plus I got a 10% student discount. I picked up the XXL to try on and almost cried when it was a little bit too tight. As I was doing the walk of shame to put it back, I happened to glance down and see the tag.
It was a small. The small was a little too tight.
I called Rui cuz I was happy but then I...went to buy the XXL. My brain just refuses to acknowledge that I'm losing weight. Rui had to tell me to try on the medium and the large. I ended up buying the large.
I know that it's a sweater and that it stretches. But it's the very first ladies' clothing that I've bought in a size large.
On the way home, as I was sitting at the bus stop, a blind lady came up and said "hello" to the general bench. No one spoke up to talk to her.
Then I did.
And she was very nice. I spoke to someone! I could have just been like everyone else and occupy myself with something else. But I turned off my ipod and listened to her.
It's too soon for the medicine to be working. I've still had lots of negative thoughts and just generally been the same. But maybe...maybe I can be a happier person soon.